Well....
I've been meaning to update this for
quite some time now, but hadn't found the time.
And I was suppose to work today – but
there is currently 7-8 inches of snow on the ground and it's still
coming down, and the roads probably won't be plowed until later this
afternoon. All this to say I suddenly have a day without any plans
(yet).
Anyways.
It's been a long time, and a lot has
happened since the last time I posted – since getting home from
Japan. And recently the Lord has been really working on my heart, and
honestly I'm not sure where to start with this.....
Just before Thanksgiving I began a
course in chalk art, a form of art that combines speed drawing with
chalk and storytelling. A few weeks ago I got to travel to North
Carolina for the second part of the class, and as it turned out I got
to see Justin (my crew lead while in Japan) while there, and I
actually ended up staying with his family for the week. I was so
incredibly blessed and encouraged, as he and his family are very
involved with ministering and serving the people in their community.
Between class time and running around with them, singing at the
nursing home to feeding the homeless – there was never a dull
moment! The whole trip was amazing!
The unfortunate thing is that every
time I leave – I have to deal with coming home, which is actually
really hard for me. Not that being home is bad – but every
time I go somewhere the Lord changes my heart a little more, and I
come back a little different. But every time I come back I have to
pick up the pieces of life one more time – I put my self back on
square one. I have the option to change the way life is or to go back
to how it was before.
Do I look for a new job or keep the
old one? Is there a ministry I can get involved with here? What am I
working towards now?
Every time- the same questions. It's
hard. So those are the things I've been working through once again
for the past two weeks. But the Lord is faithful, and He has been
guiding me. But..... it's not what I would have chosen for myself.
For the first time, in possibly my
whole life, the Lord is telling to stay. Up until now it's kind of
been working from one trip to the next- but I guess not this time.
Which is hard to hear, if you're me and you like traveling and doing
missions, but in the same way it's exciting because I know that that
means the Lord has work for me to do right here where I'm at.
"Trust in the Lord, and do good;
Dwell in the land, and feed on His faithfulness."
-Psalm 37:3
