Tuesday, April 19, 2011
In His Hand
I was reading the other night out of the book Hinds Feet on High Places. If you've never read it it's a wonderful allegorical story about a christian's walk with Christ.
Anyways this is the part I was reading:
"Shepherd!" She shrieked,
"Shepherd! Shepherd! Help me!
Where are you? Don't leave me!"
Next instant she was clinging to him,
trembling from head to foot,
and sobbing over and over again,
"You may do anything, Shepherd.
You may ask anything- only don't let me turn back.
O my Lord, don't let me leave you.
Entreat me not to leave thee nor to
return from following after thee....
Don't let anything turn me back."
He lifted her up, supported her by his arm,
and with his own hand wiped the tears from her cheeks.
"There is no question of your turning back...
No one, not even your own shrinking heart,
can pluck you out of my hand."
I read it, then stopped and read it again. And by the time I had read it through twice I had tears streaming down my face. Going back a few weeks, I made a realization that practically everything I have ever struggled with came from within. I'm not really prone to be swayed by outward influences, but if something is going on inside of my head or heart we have a serious problem. It's the one thing I fear. Myself, and my own selfish desires.
But as I read this I realized that NOTHING can pluck us out of the hand of God. I had known that but somehow I must have thought I was the exception, and that when my mind dragged me down a darkened pathway, away from Him, if I didn't get myself out of it quick, then God would forsake me and leave me there ashamed that I wasn't strong enough. But no. He knows we are weak, it doesn't surprise Him. He holds us up, supports us with His arm, even when we fall. He wipes our tears with Him own hand. And there is nothing, NOTHING that can pluck us out of His hand. Not even our own shrinking hearts...
Which means that we cannot walk away from God. We may fail, we may fall. We may think the path He has chosen for us is to hard, and as much as we love Him we just want to walk away. But you can't walk away from God, because if you try... He'll chase after you. No matter how far you run, how low you sink, no matter how long it takes. He will come for you, and He will find you. No matter what.
Because nothing can pluck you from His hand. Not even your own shrinking heart.