Thursday, April 11, 2013

I will place my trust in You

I've been meaning to update this for quite some time now, but hadn't found the time.
And I was suppose to work today – but there is currently 7-8 inches of snow on the ground and it's still coming down, and the roads probably won't be plowed until later this afternoon. All this to say I suddenly have a day without any plans (yet).

It's been a long time, and a lot has happened since the last time I posted – since getting home from Japan. And recently the Lord has been really working on my heart, and honestly I'm not sure where to start with this.....

Just before Thanksgiving I began a course in chalk art, a form of art that combines speed drawing with chalk and storytelling. A few weeks ago I got to travel to North Carolina for the second part of the class, and as it turned out I got to see Justin (my crew lead while in Japan) while there, and I actually ended up staying with his family for the week. I was so incredibly blessed and encouraged, as he and his family are very involved with ministering and serving the people in their community. Between class time and running around with them, singing at the nursing home to feeding the homeless – there was never a dull moment! The whole trip was amazing!

The unfortunate thing is that every time I leave – I have to deal with coming home, which is actually really hard for me. Not that being home is bad – but every time I go somewhere the Lord changes my heart a little more, and I come back a little different. But every time I come back I have to pick up the pieces of life one more time – I put my self back on square one. I have the option to change the way life is or to go back to how it was before.

Do I look for a new job or keep the old one? Is there a ministry I can get involved with here? What am I working towards now?

Every time- the same questions. It's hard. So those are the things I've been working through once again for the past two weeks. But the Lord is faithful, and He has been guiding me. But..... it's not what I would have chosen for myself.

For the first time, in possibly my whole life, the Lord is telling to stay. Up until now it's kind of been working from one trip to the next- but I guess not this time. Which is hard to hear, if you're me and you like traveling and doing missions, but in the same way it's exciting because I know that that means the Lord has work for me to do right here where I'm at.

"Trust in the Lord, and do good;
Dwell in the land, and feed on His faithfulness."

-Psalm 37:3

1 comment:

  1. I so know where you're coming from!! The Lord has been teaching me something similar lately. I know He will work through you greatly, but only as we surrender piece by piece. It can be really difficult, I know. Praying for God's best for you! Keep trusting Him!!